so here we are;;

brought together by this crazy thing we call

life.

and theres nothing we can do about it but ride the current. face it, if we ever try to be different all we end up with is a mouthful of salt water that burns your throat; scolding you for disobeying. All there is to do is secretly be unique. outwardly, we all are pretty much the same. And at this moment in time;; the people around me are. we are a bunch of high school students just trying to get through the day. as many know, i, on a daily basis, try to stand out; be different; voice my opinion. and where has that gotten me? Absolutley no where.

It has gotten me to the bottom of the deep blue sea. The only way out? A piece of internet blogging which will most likely be read by no one.; or;; by people who will surely laugh in my face for throwing all of this out there. You can say i dont show my feelings; and that i sometimes am a little too forward; or maybe a little too held back. Theres many words which can be used to describe my pointless existence.;; maybe i wasnt made to live the life the way i am.

Who knows; i have been called quite possibly every name under the sun. and i always "know a guy" and if you wanna play games with my feelings. Well too bad; i already constantly do that. The worst part is; the things i want to talk about the most; i bottle up. I just bottle them up inside until one day i break down over the smallest thing and i look like a immature 5 year old.

But you know, i dont mind that. It is how ive learned to cope with life. The other way is too try to make a difference in the world. A little bit like the whole "im a bad person, so i am going to help someone" swing.

Ive taken a path in life. scratch that. I am trying to figure out which path to take in life. And right now; I am leaning towards the whole; save the planet path. The hippie-pacifist-vegan vibe has totally swallowed me whole and is taking me for one heck of a ridee.

I have all my dreams and I have planned out my whole life. I need a plan; constantly. Thats one thing that most people do not know about me. I plan out what I am going to talk about; and how its going to work out. Because really? I dont like not knowing what is coming next. It scares the living daylights out of me.

another fear? People who are mad at me. When someone is mad at me;; and i am forced to confront them my heart pounds hard;; as if it was in an insane asylum. pretty crazy huh? the girl who says anything is constantly scared.

but hey;

thats life for ya.

life?

life is full of such suprises. and you always try to be prepared;;

but then youre thrown a curve ball and it knocks the wind out of you.

you then get back up and feel like youre just SO prepared

and that you know what is going to come next. but you never do;;

do you?

I just dont know anymore.

so many people these days are just so insanely addicted to drama.

its like a new drug or something.

CAUTION:;; TAKING WILL TURN YOU INTO A BITCH.

*cough* i mean, uh, a not very nice person. *cough*

yup;; i can imagine the packaging and pill and

the whole schebanggg right now.

So l e t s l i v e in this day I

know your dying to say it

lets just live in this moment and

pretend like we own it

Sisterr; SISTER

I have been thinking;

is it possible for someone to look just like you

when you were their age?

My sister and I have five years in age difference.

But I swearr;

we could be twins but without being the same age.

sure; she is skinnier than me. But other than that;;

we could deff pass off as 5 year apart twins

just something to think about.

Who cares if I sound stupid...

This is a blog; rightt?

Hello?

Yo; Hey; Bonjour; Hola.
However you greet someone;;
I'm trying to accomplish it.

This blog, I guess, will give you a look into my life.
Pretty weird, huh? I think so. Complete strangers are reading what another stranger has to say about her tiny corner of the universe. They get to view life from their perspective. How much weirder would it be, if a friend read this? There is no use thinking about the maybes. I might as well just get on with it, huh?

Anyways. My name is Phoebee. I guess you could say I am a hippie. I believe in peace and trying to save the world. And I won't let you forget it. I am one of the most open people. in the world. I think that the government has done a crappy job with important issues but I am completely against politics. I am in love with snowboarding. and journalism (Que the strong opinion)

Right now, though, I have been participating in what you might call "constructive thinking"? I keep thinking about how I have been spending my freshman year at my new school. The result? Not something I want to think about. Here's a few words to express my year so far.
fuckedup.dead.amazing.mistakes.boyfriends.toofar.crying.laughing.losingsomething.
so yeah. How's that for a year? Translation in a nutshell? Boyfriends, making out, 4th base, nightmares about childhood, new friends, getting corrupted, and just loving life.

So for now, that is all i have to say. except for this;;
a poem I had to write for English class:

Peace is never achieved without a fight
But persevering changes the planet
It bring happiness and harmony, right?
And in turn, contagious;; I bet.
Fear of attack if conquered from this
and soon death and [violence] will decrease
Hippies and pacifists cannot resist
Suns and flowers are always with peace
The icon, the image, we cannot drop
With guilty hearts;; following us around
Do you know how I feel when it all stops?
Hitting and anger;; goodness never found.
But no matter, it'll always be there
Peace; the worlds best vibe, as subtle as air.