self-conscious
–adjective
1. excessively aware of being observed by others.
2. conscious of oneself or one's own being.
One word. Three syllables. 15 letters. self conscious may seem insignificant to most people; but to a large population of the high school beings (especially girls) it describes the norm.
synonyms for this strong yet sophisticated piece of the english language?
affected; anxious; artificial; awkward; bashful; uncomfortable; nervous; embaressed.
thats not even half of the words. now look at the synonyms;; does that really describe the girls and guys that we encounter each day as we venture into the unknown and tackle daily obstacles at the jungle currently known as South County High School? I didn't think so. But we understand all too wel how self conscious;; or better yet affected most of us are. When I talk to my girl friends there is a constant subject of what we don't like about our bodies. who ever knew that one single person could pertain more problems than Windows Vista? And why complain? We are all different and special in our own ways. Why not flaunt what we have and hide what we dont? or why hide it?
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have you ever noticed that through these few years which can hold some of the best or worst times that Urban Dictionary is WAY better than the regular dictionary? I thought so too.
snowboarding
One of the greatest sports ever invented. Combines some of the most amazing aspects of nature with high speed, technical skill and bliss.
^^ Straight from Urban Dictionary.
And do you know what snowboarding leads to?
My blissful haven of complete perfection yet many mistakes and more defiances of nature than space. High Cascade.
well i guess im done. peaceout dude;;
until next time.
5.23.2009
it's funny how a single person, or better yet a single item of tiny proportions can give you such a strong vibe; impact; wave of complete feeling; that you cant help but smile and in my case; decide to write another blog to which most people wont even give the time to read. funny isnt it?
everyone in this world will leave thier own speecial mark where ever they go. especially high school. but isnt weird when you look at someone and you can somehow tell where they are going to be ten years after the graduate and leave this "pathetic excuse for a town" .? i guess thats what happens when you go to a school in which everyone knows everything about everyone and drama is more common than flip flops and texting.
but one thing that isnt too common is sunflowers. have you even just sat there and stared at one of these amazing gift from mother nature? its golden petals sit there but radiate as if shimmering brighter than the sun but dont blind you when you take a look. their long green stalks can grow enough to tower even the tallest of people but dont intimidate but instead force at least a smirk on even the unhappiest of people. their middles mix the golden petals; green stalks; and red pollen to come together as a peaceful end to this subtle yet moving flower. now many may think that i have gone insane from thinking that a sunflower can do so much;;
but the next time you come across one of these wonderful bringers of joy, take a moment or two to take in the absolute perfection that is a sunflower. it doesnt cause drama or annoy anyone. it just sits there and puts a grin on everyones face.
so i guess ive finished. im done. termino. until next time.
everyone in this world will leave thier own speecial mark where ever they go. especially high school. but isnt weird when you look at someone and you can somehow tell where they are going to be ten years after the graduate and leave this "pathetic excuse for a town" .? i guess thats what happens when you go to a school in which everyone knows everything about everyone and drama is more common than flip flops and texting.
but one thing that isnt too common is sunflowers. have you even just sat there and stared at one of these amazing gift from mother nature? its golden petals sit there but radiate as if shimmering brighter than the sun but dont blind you when you take a look. their long green stalks can grow enough to tower even the tallest of people but dont intimidate but instead force at least a smirk on even the unhappiest of people. their middles mix the golden petals; green stalks; and red pollen to come together as a peaceful end to this subtle yet moving flower. now many may think that i have gone insane from thinking that a sunflower can do so much;;
but the next time you come across one of these wonderful bringers of joy, take a moment or two to take in the absolute perfection that is a sunflower. it doesnt cause drama or annoy anyone. it just sits there and puts a grin on everyones face.
so i guess ive finished. im done. termino. until next time.
5.13.2009
i love kris allen. (: just putting that out there.
once you have sunk into what he's singing;; his total vibe surrounds you. its like a feeling of peace and tranquility. and his baby face?! GAWD. but today i was informed that i, too, am in possession of a baby face. i look younger that i actually am i guess? i am a young fourteen so can i really have a look of a thirteen year old? ever realized that once you turn a year old that the year younger seems just so immature?! funny how that works out. anyways;;
walking makes people feel better. or me at least. today my younger sister, aged a mere ten years old but containing more energy than a hundred thousand bouncing balls, went on a half an hour walk with my doggy. we ended up singing endless taylor swift songs, talking about how stupid boys are, hoping that kris allen wins, and realizing that make up is pointless. natural is better. (:
anywho. im happy.
the end. (:
once you have sunk into what he's singing;; his total vibe surrounds you. its like a feeling of peace and tranquility. and his baby face?! GAWD. but today i was informed that i, too, am in possession of a baby face. i look younger that i actually am i guess? i am a young fourteen so can i really have a look of a thirteen year old? ever realized that once you turn a year old that the year younger seems just so immature?! funny how that works out. anyways;;
walking makes people feel better. or me at least. today my younger sister, aged a mere ten years old but containing more energy than a hundred thousand bouncing balls, went on a half an hour walk with my doggy. we ended up singing endless taylor swift songs, talking about how stupid boys are, hoping that kris allen wins, and realizing that make up is pointless. natural is better. (:
anywho. im happy.
the end. (:
5.09.2009
shit-faced.
a word to describe a state of being in which you dont exactly know where you are, what youre doing, or how you got in your current state of being.
my problem? i am terrrible with this. not remember doing something that could seriously injure you is bad enough. but when you dont remember how much you drank and suddenly everyone around you thinks you have alcohol poisoning? yeah, NOT a good thing. not good AT ALL. but hey, i finally got to experience the thing that i was most excited about with high school: drinking parties.
too bad i pregamed four hours early. and too bad i drank on an empty stomach. and too bad i am a fucking lightweight. sometimes i really do wish i could just stop and i was the nieve girl that everyone thought was a sweetie pie. on the other hand, though, this is the lifestyle that most people love. crazy drunken nights. not remembering what happened. cleaning up and laughing about everything. meeting random people. its all good. right? wrong. when you almost get alcohol poisoning on your first party you need to s l o w d o w n .
but nothing much you can do now. i already have the next two weekends filled with drinking. perfect; huh?
the fact of the matter is, i really want to stop drinking. this way of life has swallowed me whole. and by suprise. i dont understand how you cope with all the insanity and every minute im thinknig about how i am going to have to work even harder to focus at school.
drinking at age fourteen? COME ON. thats not a good way to start. at all.
and this is not a good way to end a blog either.
but heres the bottom line:;:
as much as i would like to quit drinking...
im not going to be able to and im going to keep going
until at one point i am screeeched to a hault.
god speed to me.
a word to describe a state of being in which you dont exactly know where you are, what youre doing, or how you got in your current state of being.
my problem? i am terrrible with this. not remember doing something that could seriously injure you is bad enough. but when you dont remember how much you drank and suddenly everyone around you thinks you have alcohol poisoning? yeah, NOT a good thing. not good AT ALL. but hey, i finally got to experience the thing that i was most excited about with high school: drinking parties.
too bad i pregamed four hours early. and too bad i drank on an empty stomach. and too bad i am a fucking lightweight. sometimes i really do wish i could just stop and i was the nieve girl that everyone thought was a sweetie pie. on the other hand, though, this is the lifestyle that most people love. crazy drunken nights. not remembering what happened. cleaning up and laughing about everything. meeting random people. its all good. right? wrong. when you almost get alcohol poisoning on your first party you need to s l o w d o w n .
but nothing much you can do now. i already have the next two weekends filled with drinking. perfect; huh?
the fact of the matter is, i really want to stop drinking. this way of life has swallowed me whole. and by suprise. i dont understand how you cope with all the insanity and every minute im thinknig about how i am going to have to work even harder to focus at school.
drinking at age fourteen? COME ON. thats not a good way to start. at all.
and this is not a good way to end a blog either.
but heres the bottom line:;:
as much as i would like to quit drinking...
im not going to be able to and im going to keep going
until at one point i am screeeched to a hault.
god speed to me.
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