–noun
1. a building for public Christian worship.
Yup. I am one of the many thousands who has ever attended one of these houses in which we bow our heads and pray to our Lord. our God. But there are so many individuals in this world who worship a different lord; or better yet; choose to not believe. Now I’m getting away from the fact of why I googled the vague yet specific word of church.
So have you ever been to a church? Or maybe any place in which you worship? If you have or even if you haven’t, I am sure you will understand what I am about to attempt to explain with my body and mind; aged fourteen short years.
At church; there is a priest. This priest usually preaches to the people;; mostly about advice and what not. Now how totally hypocritical would it be if that priest went one hundred and fifty percent against what he said? Pretty bad; huh? I have a funny feeling that church would be losing members faster than a naked guy, who just found his girlfriend’s father is home, can pull up his pants. (considering I am talking about church; I don’t think that was the best choice of words. But hey; we all make mistakes).
The point I am trying so hard to somehow mark on everyones mind who might have the disfortune of fixing their eyes on this deceitful blog is;
That if you are going to say something, stick to your word.
And that, my friend, is something I have not been able to accomplish. I pride myself on someone of peace who wants to think things through; talk things out; and avoid fighting at all costs. But what did I do today? I became a hypocritical priest and acted without thinking. I posted a blog completely trashing someone who was basically innocent. Even worse? I called him and texted him; calling him pathetic. What type of disgraceful; useless piece of skin and bones am I? I didn’t even give him a chance to speak his mind. and I didn’t even give him the benefit of the doubt and listen.
now how much of a peaceful hippie pacifist does that sound like?
Not much; huh? Yeah. I didn’t think so either. So here I am; writing everything that pops into my head as I run through the disfortunate events that I had the tragic inconvenience of starting by the simple act of not caring or listening.
Remember how I said I always started drama without understanding how I could end up causing the chain effect of outraged people starting rumor after rumor of hurtful words that would in turn account for the negative moods of students all through the hallways? well I just figured it out.
I haven’t been truthful to anything I preach to others. Scratch that. I have been truthful; but only to a select few things. Those including? Veganism. It’s a tough thing to do; but when you know that one of your best friends is there with you to talk about it; you find a way to cope.
cope
verb, coped, cop⋅ing.
1. to struggle or deal, esp. on fairly even terms or with some degree of success.
I fear that in this day and age; many high school students are learning to; or attempting to cope with the hurdles and obstacles that life is throwing out there. My current “cope”? Journalism. College. Because of a small achievement in a single academic elective; my parents have started to plan out my whole life. Its being p l a n n e d .
But where did my dream go? My dream of
Reason? I mean hey; it sounds kind of stupid coming from an almost fifteen year old. It sounds even stupider when her writing skills could quite possibly land her a high paying job in the field of journalism or book writing.
Do you understand my cope now? Okay; so now whoever you may be; youre probably thinking…
“dude. JOURNALISM. Flaunt what you got; and you got writing.”
But haven’t you EVER had something that you can’t go a day without thinking about? Everytime you think about it too much you have to stop because its too much for you to handle. Knowing that something you’ve been looking for your whole life is so close.
Oh well; that’s what high school is about right? Finding yourself; understanding your dream. Figuring out what is do-able and what isn’t. And that; everybody; is my exact position;
my current
growing pains
and most importantly that is
a take on life from a not so secret teenager
